When I Really Feel Down...

 It seems like something amazing happens that cheers me up....
Recently things have been rather rough and on a very hard day I got this in the mail..

 It was a good reminder , something I needed to hear that day and also it was a wonderful reminder of how much this friend cares for me and prays for me.

I have been having a rough time getting myself  to get my work done....you may be wondering what work?

My Art for The People project, some of you know about it and some of you do not.
I make lots of  half page size drawings and give them to people ...mostly I hope it cheers them up.

When you go to see doctors as much as I do you will see sad people....not just at the doctors you see them everywhere.

Sometimes I am one of those people...but I don't want to be... I want to make a difference in the world I want to cheer them up like others have cheered me up.

I let my stack of drawings get rather low .

I feel like I was not doing my job.

So...maybe I can't make 15 a day ...some days I can't make any ...but some days I could of made 2 but I didn't .

I intend to do better...one could make a difference and if I am supposed to do it I better do it.

I pray for the people that get my drawings.  If it cheers some one up then I think I have done my job.

Jobs don't always make you money....sometimes you are just supposed to do something because God wants you to, and if you do it I believe you will have peace in you soul.

Etch-A-Sketch Art And Other New Art

 Last time my sister Katie was here she took some photos for me of some of my art....

                                A  nautilus on the Etch-A-Sketch

                            A 36x20something.....drawing of dancing daisies , I intentionally planned the daisies to be black and white I thought the contrast would make them seem more dramatic.

                        A fire daisy that was stuck in my head. ( I decided to banish it to paper ..It was taking up my brain gigabytes)

                        Flowers of many colors.



                             And I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a good night!

Mr. Mcgreenie And His Meats....

  For your reading pleasure....

I made this for my sister Katie to read to the amazing Ace !  I used to have 3 book clubs, one for each of my siblings . When they were really into it I did 3 a day....it slowed down though, it is pretty hard to make 3 different books a day. The longest lasting one was Dog Club ...I did it for 10 years. Katie saved lots of them...Ace will probably get to see those also.  I am glad there is a little kid in the family again!

If you are wondering how things are going....not the best, I have an infected knee...today it is looking much better!  Antibiotics seem to be working, I was worried... it was and still is very painful.  I had a little scratch on my knee that healed about a week ago and apparently some germs decided it was like a hot tub in there or something and had a party. Really Creepy if you ask me....I could make a horror picture book about it but I don't think I will, I did make a book for my brother called Germs inside you one time when he was sick I guess that was sort of scary but it had a happy ending and the germ died and had a funeral but no one came.  That was that.

 Please keep praying for my knee.

Thanks to everyone for all the kindness lately. :)

The Sun Still Rises Every Morning And The Flowers Will Still Be Dancing

  I have had some not good days since I last wrote...some really bad seizures but then I had a couple of days with no seizures. ( That was amazing)

Got off of a drug I think made me hallucinate...Artaine , maybe it did help with the Dystonia  but I need to recognize my parents.....any doctor that would rather me be hallucinating is foolish, just plain foolish.

 I can not walk and have difficulty chewing but at least I know people.

I got see a lot of friends the weekend before last and was given ginormous amounts of love and even an accordion player came and played in my room.

With all that love and the sun rising every morning and my flowers lift their little flower faces doing their daily sun dance and rejoicing in their life and their Creator  ......I find my joy also.

At the end of their dance, when the sun sets the orchids nearly always face me and I feel like they are smiling.." That was simply wonderful"....they seem to say and I have to agree.

The night before Thanksgiving a very bad thing happened and it hurts very much...emotionally , something I feel like I should not go into detail about but it is something my family has had to deal with for years.

I do know that God is bigger than this....and I can cast my cares on Him in fact I have to because they are just too big for me right now, nothing is too big for God.

I am praying God will help me forgive...because I cannot.

I do not wish to become bitter , I do not want to be full of anger and hate.

I pray and pray...because I can do nothing else about this.

 Rejoicing, dancing orchids.

 More rose drawings

They face you when the sun sets.

This Post Simply Must Be Called Flower Power

  I have been using lots of different colored paper....And lots of different colors, lots more blending mostly because I ran out of some colors I normally use, I found out for the most part it is not really a problem.

 The above drawing is on cardboard...it was on the bottom of my paper so I used it!

 African Violet on orange paper...believe it or not I have no black but the dark blue on orange looks black and a greenish pencil that I used on the violet looked blue, the colors were different .

 This is on pink paper...if your wondering some of the rainbow vibes I have been drawing are somewhat based on how the flowers move, however some of my flowers are not from real ones , the rose on the cardboard is made up....but I imagined how it would move if it was real. Flowers move a lot, in fact I think of them as little creatures.

 The yellow rose is on blue paper....it made the leaves greener. The similar one I put on previously was on greyish paper.

This purple rose is on orange paper which gave it a nice glowing , warmish sort of look.

 I finally got rid of my headache that I had for days....I drank a bunch of olive juice from the green olives and I was feeling so much better.  I did this one other time and it helped then also.  My Dad and Mom think maybe I did not have enough sodium. 

I really wanted green olives .  Maybe green olives and olive juice is good for your head???

Art For The People and New Drawings

 I started making a bunch of smaller drawings to give away at an art show and I liked it so much I do it when I go places......They are sort of a business card in a way......In a way they are not, I put my blog address on there so people can see my other drawings...not necessarily for people to make requests...but I am happy when that happens too!

 The above red flowers are the most popular choice with men.....I let people pick which one they want and guys pretty much always pick these red flowers...of course none of the drawings are the same but if it has this sort of flower in it for some reason a guy will probably want it. Not always but 75% of the time.

 I like to have at least 50  ready to give away....I have gotten below that, I think I only have 40-something left, I need to get busy.

 The above flower is the Daddy rose.....because I made it for Daddy!

                             This orchid is watercolor :)

  I am taking a break from drawing really big rose drawings until my new pencils come in the mail...I have run out of a bunch of colors.

 Baby Ace got to come home on Sunday, I am so happy about that.

This week has been rather rough on me however, not feeling right and have had a headache for days .

A Drawing of Elijah, Dream-like States, and Other Things

 Here is a drawing I did of Elijah at the alter when the fire of the Lord came down and consumed the sacrifice....
and the wood, stones, dust, and it licked up the water in the trench.
look in 1 Kings chapter 18.

 I was given some really pretty miniature roses so I drew this picture 

 Then I decided I wanted a really big picture...so thats what I did next.

   You are probably wondering what does this got to do with a dream-like state? Well....I had a Neurology appointment last week and I was told when my pupils are huge maybe I am stuck in a dream-like state ...sometimes people say my flowers are dreamy or trippy ...anyway I don't think I am in a dream....as far as I know I am awake, but if its a good dream then I think it would be alright..but I am pretty sure I am awake!

 Here is a big flower drawing I did earlier this year...and some bears . I really miss how easy the sewing machine used to be for me to use....I need to figure out a new one-handed way where there is something for me to lean on to hold myself up, so I can sit decently, but perhaps right now I am supposed to draw not sew?

I went to see the brace man today...I really like him, he is so kind.
I am not getting anything different...if you follow my blog you are probably wondering how come I am not getting a brace that goes up past my knee? Well...lots of reasons..I am worse ...probably could not get the thing on....
I am glad I can still get the brace I have on, it still helps.

Last week...Daddy bought me some sesame candy, I must say I find it the most marvelous, wonderfully tasty candy ever . It has been a favorite of mine since I first got one from a parade when I was 9 or 10 .

Also since this has to do with dreaming....when I was waiting in the car after church a person walked by and said " Whats up with Jess? Has she been sleeping." Well, I can see why a person would think I was sleeping in church if they sit behind me since I have to lean on some one to sit up...and if they get up I pretty much lay sideways ......I am not sleeping. I just felt like saying this in case you sit behind me and wonder.....
...I did sleep in church one time, but that was a long time ago...years, maybe over a decade ago.

 Of course IF I am stuck in a dream then ....... I must have dreams within dreams and ....I really don't know what to think about THAT thought.  He he.

Pencil Drawings