Life

 There are a good many things I cannot write about on this blog and it has made posting very hard.

I have had some very rough days and some better days.

I have had really happy times...my cousin's wedding and the family reunion, and some really sad things ( what I cannot share with the world)

I want to be brave.

I want to be strong.

I want to be patient.

I want to carry on.


But I feel like a wimp, the opposite of brave.

I feel so weak , I can't stand long.

I have to be patient, but the wait causes pain.

I must carry on, that is my only choice.

So I pray because I can't do anything else about it.

My hope is that love shall cover a multitude of sin.

But no matter what I know God knows better than me, and I would be a fool to think I know as much as God. 

Joy still comes. 
It was overflowing yesterday! I went to my Grandpa's house on the lake with friends and family and I ate some mudbugs. Lots of mudbugs!  And Mr. Smith played some music and I got to play the tambourine and my Dad's log drum thing. Also I got to ride with my sister Katie and Ethan which for me was the best.
 

New Glasses, Family Reunion, And The Reason Why I Don't Sleep Very Well....

 My new glasses came yesterday and I am glad..my left eye was far blurrier than I thought, now it is so much better. The eye doctor really should of left the right side alone however, I am deciding whether to send the glasses back or not.

I got to go to the reunion yesterday and I fell asleep, I guess I was having seizures . No wonder why I get so exhausted. They get me while I sleep too. I 'm not going to talk about it anymore right now.

The reunion is days not just a day I have missed a day but was glad I went yesterday. My youngest cousin is super tall like six feet !!!!! I feel even smaller now. We talked about true love and stories that really ought to be on This American Life, school and what alternative school is like ( prison basically), and how I was....all I say is o.k.

Sometimes I am not o.k. but I lie.

Oh yes, I am planning to enter the Easter Seals art contest.