A Drawing of Elijah, Dream-like States, and Other Things

 Here is a drawing I did of Elijah at the alter when the fire of the Lord came down and consumed the sacrifice....
and the wood, stones, dust, and it licked up the water in the trench.
look in 1 Kings chapter 18.

 I was given some really pretty miniature roses so I drew this picture 

 Then I decided I wanted a really big picture...so thats what I did next.

   You are probably wondering what does this got to do with a dream-like state? Well....I had a Neurology appointment last week and I was told when my pupils are huge maybe I am stuck in a dream-like state ...sometimes people say my flowers are dreamy or trippy ...anyway I don't think I am in a dream....as far as I know I am awake, but if its a good dream then I think it would be alright..but I am pretty sure I am awake!

 Here is a big flower drawing I did earlier this year...and some bears . I really miss how easy the sewing machine used to be for me to use....I need to figure out a new one-handed way where there is something for me to lean on to hold myself up, so I can sit decently, but perhaps right now I am supposed to draw not sew?

I went to see the brace man today...I really like him, he is so kind.
I am not getting anything different...if you follow my blog you are probably wondering how come I am not getting a brace that goes up past my knee? Well...lots of reasons..I am worse ...probably could not get the thing on....
I am glad I can still get the brace I have on, it still helps.

Last week...Daddy bought me some sesame candy, I must say I find it the most marvelous, wonderfully tasty candy ever . It has been a favorite of mine since I first got one from a parade when I was 9 or 10 .

Also since this has to do with dreaming....when I was waiting in the car after church a person walked by and said " Whats up with Jess? Has she been sleeping." Well, I can see why a person would think I was sleeping in church if they sit behind me since I have to lean on some one to sit up...and if they get up I pretty much lay sideways ......I am not sleeping. I just felt like saying this in case you sit behind me and wonder.....
...I did sleep in church one time, but that was a long time ago...years, maybe over a decade ago.

 Of course IF I am stuck in a dream then ....... I must have dreams within dreams and ....I really don't know what to think about THAT thought.  He he.

Brace Man

Today I saw the brace man and everything is fine. He gave me some new foam for my afo. Afterwards Mommy and I went shopping and I returned a pair of shorts I got awhile ago. I bought a new skirt and a new shirt with the lorax on it.

I am tired. I do not have much to say.

My brother is taking his collage entrance test tomorrow. If you are a praying person please pray he does not panic.

Today he is worried and looks awful.

He was STILL asleep when Mommy and I came home.

I think he was up worrying ALL night.

The Sun Came Out Again Today !

 The sun came out again today , the brace man did not say anything about making me a wedge on my shoe, :) I am so happy about this , so happy !!!! I heard about the meteor , I hope the second one does not kill anyone. It is really weird that this happened because yesterday at dinner Daddy said " I feel as though the world as we know it shall end, soon" He seems to say something like that quite often when a natural disaster hits. I think he can sometimes sense planetary forces or something. He also seems to pick vacations on disasters too , and not just natural ones 9,11 for example. But not always.
 

Something That is Bothering Me........

 Something that has really been bothering me is the fact that my left leg has not been working properly, starting in September. Maybe it is because I have hit my head too many times, maybe I just have too many seizures, I don't really know. I am afraid. I am afraid of what might happen next. I am unhappy I still cannot use my leg. I am supposed to get an AFO Thursday, that has taken months. Everyone thinks I am so brave but I am not nearly as brave as you think I am.
 I am really tired of taking my medicine, even though I know I must I still don't like the way it makes me feel. If I quit , like they tried in hospital, I have seizures nearly non stop and since it seemed to take the grandmals away I just cannot stop. But life goes on and I absolutely must continue on and pray that God gives me the grace to continue on and to do so without deep depths of sadness.