Distonia Doc

 Some of yous know that I have been having a rough time ...well I wasn't scheduled to see the Distonia Doc  until September but they had a cancellation which rarely happens so I got to go yesterday.

The appointment went well and it seemed clear that I have some sort of distonia so clear in fact that the doctor thought I was one of the other doctors patients.

Anyway , the doctor did not know what kind I have for sure, but he has some ideas. I will probably need more testing and genetic testing.

Right now I am trying some different stuff with the Ldopa to see if it does anything.

And....go from there.



     The below drawing is my response to all the meanness that was going on my friends facebook pages this week. 

   Some happy pandas enjoying the rain.

 More glowing daisies.

Also I would like to say thank you for all the prayers , It means so much and the cards I got this week....I have been sad and it makes a really big difference. I feel so much love , if love could cure a person I would be beyond cured I would be wonder woman!

Cheerful Flowers In Spite Of Pain

In spite of the hard days I have had lately I still have been drawing, most of these except one are from the past 2 weeks.

Sometimes I get lazy and don't put my drawings on here and they get new homes and no one else gets to see them.

I force myself to meditate on Gods creation when I am sad and it helps.

Flowers...a meditation on the lovely.

The above black and white ones fit together.

Here are some questions I get a lot about my drawings...
Why colored pencil and not paint?  Because I drop stuff often paint would be a complete mess...the daisy drawing , it happened 23 times.

How long does it take?  Pretty much 2 hours...sometimes 2 and a half but not any longer unless it is big like 24x36 .

Do you start with regular pencil?  No, different colors have different base colors like for a red primrose , purple or blue. Yellow is brown, burnt orange, or sometimes dark red.

Holes In The Day

 Since last Tuesday things have been pretty rough.
     Lots of seizure like events  (distonic storms?)


Imagine you are talking with someone and all of a sudden you went forward into the future , maybe they quit talking to you maybe they are not even sitting by you anymore.

Now imagine this happening fifty times.....a big chunk of you day just went bye-bye.

Most people don't black out but I do...I have been told maybe I pinch something off in my neck.

So...the Ldopa was increased so has the nausea.

I did not think I could stand it if I went backwards....but I am not God and for some reason it happened.

Yesterday I went to the lake with family and friends. I still enjoyed the day , I just wish it wasn't full of holes.

Trusting is God is what I must do ....and pray.
I can do no other.....
So help me God.