I Am So Happy!!

Because my sister found a good man.

I hope her honeymoon is wonderful.

Daddy is probably moving her furniture today.

I hope it is warmer where they went than it is here.

My Sister is Married Now!!

 It was a very rainy day but it was o.k. because we had some tents.

It was so much fun seeing family and friends.

There was food there for me. ( I can't have gluten or dairy)

I am sort of glad it's over , but then I sort of wish the party could last forever.

 Some of my family....My sister is the one in the tiara, she changed out of her dress.

Action shot of my cousin and I dancing, you can tell I was moving!!
That's all for now folks!

Weddings...

Are much work.

My sister is exceedingly happy.

I am happy about it also.

Rehearsal is tomorrow.

I Don't Like Cool Weather....

 But I like it far better than snow!!!

So yes it is quite cool .

Some leave are turning....
..summer went goodbye.

I don't like cool weather,

 but I do like to see the seasons change.

Better Than Last Monday....

 I actually remember all of my appointment today, and wasn't zonked out in my chair.

Much better.

I must of looked pretty awful last Monday.

Nurses were saying how much better I looked.

I hope I keep feeling better because this weekend is going to be really busy.

My sister is to be wed on Saturday. 

All the bridesmaids are invited to a sleepover party with my sister the night before but I can't do that.

The rehearsal and wedding will be enough.

I want the bad seizures to stay away.

I Don't Have Much To Say.......

Here are some irises.....

I still feel out of sorts, surely I would be over what happened early Monday morning.....maybe not .

I wish I could describe it but its something I just can't.

3 Grandmals = :(

 Three grandmals happened the night before last, well I guess it was in the wee hours of the morning.

I don't remember.

I don't remember much of the doctors appointment yesterday.

Probably a good thing, that I don't remember.

It's been a little over a year since I had grandmals.

Bummer.

What can I say? I want to say a curse word for poop that people say when they are really really mad.

I am just going to say.......POOOOOP!!!!!

I am mad.


Well, hopefully today will be better than yesterday and my leg will cooperate and The grandmals will stay away.

More Drawings....

 The difference between 44 cent pencils and the better ones...( experimental)

Some Drawings....

 I have a little blue book that I draw in and I decided to share some of my drawings today, since I don't really want to write.

 I  might put more on some other time but this is all for now.
Hope they brighten your day.

On A Lighter Note...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aS46hhrdaYs&feature=c4-overview&list=UU7E0oQocE2T0TdYVei1B6Zg

Stuff That Some Persons Don't Talk About ...But I Am Now

 Because of Labor day the office was closed on Monday, so I had i.v. today.

I was very glad because I was having so many seizures I think it was giving me a brain slur.

What is a brain slur? When you sit down to read a book only to realize that you have been reading the same page over and over for 20 minutes. When you keep forgetting what you are doing or what your going to do. You know that sort of thing............

Something still feels odd but I can't explain it.

I.v. helped me a lot anyway, and I got to see one of my friends and have one of the nurses fuss over me a bit .

I probably looked a bit sad and TRUTHFULLY I was.........................I was thinking about  ......well, my friends from I.V. that died.

I can't  not think about it.

I think about it every time I go there.

I sit in the chair you sat in.
I use the same i.v. pole you did.
We walked through the same doors.
We probably breathed the same air.
We were many times in the same room,
but now your not here.
You are gone, I stayed.

Then I think about who I have not seen in a long while.

Are you well my friend?
Are you out and about?
Are you in the hospital?
Are you in a nursing home or institution?
If you saw me would you know me?
If I saw you would I know you?
Are you gone my friend?

And well.....I wonder about that group of friends.

I don't think it is bad to think about those things....Do you??

We are all on a journey of sorts , and it does end.

I guess thinking about those people every time I go there or go by a certain place makes me feel closer to them.

But then again it's sort of heavy and SAD.

My Sister is Getting Married

Well one of my sisters.....
I am happy for her , but a little sad.

You know, she's grown up and soon we  again will not be in the same house anymore.

September 21st.

She gave me her Cabbage Patch Kid to live with my other dolls.

She gave me back my Christmas stocking which she stole. (a long but silly story I am not going to tell right now)

I guess people normally get rid of some of their kid stuff when they are getting married, it just feels weird, I mean we used to play a good deal with her doll and though she hasn't played with her in years it still feels strange.

Well, that's all I am going to say now.

Thoughts ......

 Sometimes I think about what I used to be like and what I have become.

I think about what I wanted to do....and what I am doing.

I think about that I used to do .....and what I can no longer do.

Yet somehow peace has not fled , it is alive and well.

Why?

Grace perhaps ?

Maybe the simple fact that if I don't want to live in my body where else am I going to live ......put an end to my unhappy thoughts.

Peace is still here...mostly because I believe that God has a plan for everything and I just have to trust.

If everything in the universe was just random and crazy I think I would be very afraid.

Actually I know I would be.