I.V. And Bad Stuff And What Is On My Mind

My good vein is finally back to normal, however it has been getting poked normally weekly for the past four years and this year twice a week and its getting used too much. I also have noticed that my legs and arms are rather puffy afterwards and it take two days for my weight to go back down to normal...when you do not even weigh 90 pounds you find the normal dose of stuff is too much. Also my seizures are not responding as much as they used too, they still are responding but not as much. One thing that's really getting me down is friends dying and ....I am just sad about it. Part of life is death because of the fall of man. How could Eve do such a thing????? Eve, did you not think? Adam you were not very bright either........I hate you both. The thing about all this that really is sickening is we ALL sin like Adam and Eve. I guess what I am trying to say is I HATE SIN ,I HATE DEATH!!! Some days I feel as though I have a thousand sorrows but the reality is I have millions of things to be happy about and I really ought to be full of hope and joy......I fail, I sin, I am human. Yes , I WANT TO SAY BAD WORDS!!! I need to seek peace though....there is a reason for everything and I believe it. Basically that is what is on my mind and I had to get it out.