What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?

 People still ask me that.....
I just say I am what I am and I do what I do.
I survive, I am an artist.

Strange Day Of Cuteness

 Today a woman at i.v. that I have never seen before was saying how cute I was and then wanted to know how old I was so I told her (23).
Anyway the conversation went like this:
" Oh she is so cute , how old is she?" ( the woman was asking my mom how old I was ) I replied "23"
the woman got a strange look on her face " Oh my gosh , she is just so cute I never would of guessed that she was in her 20s . That is just so adorable, I mean adorable! Oh my gosh!"
  I said " Thank you!!"  I thought it was funny . She went on " you look good, real good "
" Thank you." I said again.
I get a kick when I amaze people about my age.

Then coming home a woman at the toll booth thought my sunglasses were so cute. It is very rare for a toll booth worker to want to chat about how cute your sunglasses are, or talk about anything, they have to keep traffic moving.

Someone at the doctors said I always have the cutest socks.

All I can say is thanks.

Like I say, today was a very strange day of cuteness.

What Have I Been Doing?

Drawing and reading and laying in the sun on the deck, but today it is raining. Also I helped my sister find bridesmaid dresses. She decided on blue. I guess I won't get a pink dress. I really do not care, she wanted so many colors in her wedding I wondered how she was planning to pull all of it off. I miss my sister. She has been so very busy and when she is off work she goes to see her beau . I told her she should take me somewhere so she said o.k. She is planning to take me to the mall sometime when she is off, I told her that her man can come too.

Another thing that I have been thinking deeply about is how the sermons at church now
(about love) tie into the ones when we left our old church( the different kinds of love). That was about eight years ago...I think I had a better memory then. Anyway it goes to show that even if you think your kid is not listening.. they might be. I am not saying I always listened....lots of times I did not.

Even more stuff that I have been thinking about is recently a friend and the sister that is getting married have had a bad something. Not really a fight , I guess disagreements and hurt. It is too complicated for me to begin to describe it. I feel like the grown up world is too complicated and there is just too much I do not understand. I wish I could fix things but it does not even have anything to do with me, nor does anyone expect me to fix things or understand the situation. I do know one thing that I can do though....PRAY.

What is Maturity, Being Grown Up, Is The Definition Solid or is it Mere Opinion ..Solid or Otherwise?

     I don't really know the answer to these questions. I know being responsible is part of being a grown up but.... a kid can be very responsible too. Grown ups can be really irresponsible as well.
     If you never fully physically mature if you just can't seem to get any further, your still a grown up if the law says you are right ??? I think about when I was in Cleveland and people from pediatrics had to be sent up to me. The adolescent councilor person had to come up and see me not the adult one. I am still a grown up, just a different sort of one. I feel like a girl that got stuck and everyone else is grown up and moving on in life. In someways maybe I do think differently but does not every person?
     One time I saw a psychologist and she wanted to know about the friend that I spent the most time with, so I told her . At first she was pleased until she asked how old my friend was ..I told her she was in her 60s... I thought, because it would not be polite to ask.  The psychologist was very angry . "You mean to tell me you spent all that time with someone in their 60s ? " YES! " Your insane. You should be out with people your own age doing things people your own age do. Your friendship is unhealthy and socially unacceptable."

 Well, I took a big gulp and said ,"Your wrong...Where is it in life you only spend time with people your own age besides in grade school? You must interact with people of all ages... nearly everyday." I spoke so quietly, I felt like someone put a enormous cement block on my back, but she heard me. " We are done." was all the psychologist said after that. 
   I don't think that psychologist was very mature, calling me insane , only because I had a friend that was much older than myself. She may of been more of a Grown up than me ...but there is so much I cannot understand.