Those Days...

 When you mostly draw and play with the Etch-a Sketch.

 And can't really concentrate on a book.

 You are mad because you've got a nasty sore throat.

 You get even madder because you don't want anything to eat but you've got to anyway.

 Perhaps it is not really anger but frustration.... perhaps .

Lamictal??

 Will I be given that also? What will happen to me next?

What will the white coated person say?

Will it be a step forward or will I go tumbling tumbling tumbling down a hill.

Will I fall off the cliff at the bottom or.......shall it be a savior.




Sometimes I want to shed my body and run away from it and not worry about stuff anymore.

 Run away in the woods and climb trees.

I would run far, far away into the sea and swim for thousands of miles.

On the other side I would go in a pub and drink some beer..because I could.....
.......but I couldn't.. you can't do stuff if you don't have a body.

I would want to drive away too because I could, but that requires a body too.
 Before someone gets worried...trust me I am only metaphorically speaking.

Yesterday And A Bunch Of Thoughts...

 Yesterday was i.v. and a doctors appointment, a long ride home and a nap.

Later Daddy took me in the hot tub!!!!!! I asked him a long long time ago and he worked on it, and I finally got to go in there. I trust him to keep me from drowning though I must freak him out somewhat because he won't stay in there too long. That's o.k.


I am not sure if I am going to enter my crafts in the fair this year. I just really don't like how early it is in the year now and you HAVE to pick up your stuff before 1:00 p.m. on a Sunday. Saturday evening was much easier because if you win any prize money thats when they have the checks ready, why did they change it? I just don't know.

Sibling stuff going on , and my parents sometimes don't know what to do about it.
I guess they will calm down? I am told it's all because of horrormones.

I found out fireworks are as bad for me as I have been told.

That's all for now folks.

Finished Pants Quilt !!

So today I managed to go to church and ......I finally finished the quilt I was making from old pants. I also made a pillow yesterday from the extra bits.

So...I made it through the reunion!

 Yesterday we heard some music and ate dinner together.
The day before that I went to a parade and ate lunch,then I went home and took a nap.
The day before that my friend came to the reunion to play some music, also his family came and they are my friends too!! I was very happy. Here are some pictures of that day........

I did not see the fireworks but I got a phone call from someone I have not seen in a long long time, that is much better than fireworks. Fireworks are not really good for me, I have been told.

I has been great seeing everyone and I am glad I got to do what I did.

New Glasses, Family Reunion, And The Reason Why I Don't Sleep Very Well....

 My new glasses came yesterday and I am glad..my left eye was far blurrier than I thought, now it is so much better. The eye doctor really should of left the right side alone however, I am deciding whether to send the glasses back or not.

I got to go to the reunion yesterday and I fell asleep, I guess I was having seizures . No wonder why I get so exhausted. They get me while I sleep too. I 'm not going to talk about it anymore right now.

The reunion is days not just a day I have missed a day but was glad I went yesterday. My youngest cousin is super tall like six feet !!!!! I feel even smaller now. We talked about true love and stories that really ought to be on This American Life, school and what alternative school is like ( prison basically), and how I was....all I say is o.k.

Sometimes I am not o.k. but I lie.

Oh yes, I am planning to enter the Easter Seals art contest.

Ralphie Is The Best

 Yesterday was i.v. as is every Monday. But what makes it so much better is the first Monday of every month Ralphie gets an i.v. too, I mean not that he has to get an i.v. ...that is sad, I mean that I love getting to see him.

He wanted to see my sketchbook and I finally remembered to bring it this time.

I gave him a drawing and wrote " To: Ralphie, you are the best!"

We tease each other and laugh and be silly. The i.v. room suddenly is not so boring anymore ..in fact it nearly is a party in there.

Also I am excited because he said he will probably come and see me sometime!