Hopes For The New Year

 I hope I have at least one seizure free day, as it's been over 2 years since that's happened.

 No matter what , I am just going to be glad to of made it to 2014!
Everyone should be, really.

Now I shall tell you about Christmas and such...... I was extremely busy working on gifts and things for my family. Christmas eve my parents , Aaron, Kelsey and I opened gifts and played some Christmas mad libs........The weird thing was someone used my name and said that I wore bells around my wrist that would jingle whenever I fell.   I DO! It is sort of a low tech alarm I guess.

Anyway the next day my Grandparents and Katie and Ethan came over and we had more gifts and played more mad libs. I couldn't stop laughing, one really should stay away from that game if you have a sore rib, I fell and hit it on the bathroom sink days before..not because of a seizure though just because I was unsteady.

Not the next day but the next was my Dad's birthday and we went to my uncle's house which is always fun and there was some good music there.

Then not the next day but the day after that was Kelsey's birthday and church. She had a friend over and seemed to be having fun.

Yesterday I had i.v. and waited and waited and waited to see the doctor and then... my friend Tammy came in I was so glad and it made the day better.  I missed her so much and I pray for her everyday.
I also saw my friend Mike and I hardly recognized him because hes got hair now!! He even grew a beard!  I hope that means he is doing better, we don't really talk too much about how we are . We both pretty much said the same thing , that we had good days and bad days.

I feel like it's been three weeks since I did anything on this blog...I guess I'm tired.

 What I made for my Dado ( I call him that sometimes)..I sewed the fabric on the sweatshirt I didn't make the sweatshirt, sorry it's sideways the computer was not cooperating.

 The back of it....

 Aaron's......

         Kelsey's.......

        Momma's...........

     The card I made for Grandpa, I made a different one for my Grandma.

 So that is what I have been up to. Very busy!

Happy Winter Solstice Everyone!!

In the past I have really offended some people by saying that.

 I do not mean it to be so, the winter solstice is something I am thankful for...something I in fact rejoice in.

So far today has been quiet and I am tired. I am drawing purple roses...yesterday I drew this.....

Flowers and Music...

 Yesterday was a really wonderful day, first of all a good friend of mine was coming over sometime in the afternoon, and then we were going to go and listen to jazz with my grandmother at Dante's ....And to make it even better another friend was there Eric!

Yes I was very happy , and I was even given some flowers..which for me is almost like some sort of drug, I have an overwhelming inclination to draw them before they die. I stare at them till I nearly throw myself into some sort of trance, and draw and get blisters and draw some more. Maybe that seems silly but to me it isn't.

The Life of Bob The Evil Stickman ...And How it All Ended

 Today I found an old book I wrote...which really is not that unusual since all three of my sibling were in their own book clubs that I wrote frequently for years.

The story in this one however is very unique, at least I think so. ( warning it is intense)


The Life of Bob, The Evil Stick man And How it All Ended!

 Meet Bob the stick man. He lived on some paper with his wife and children.

 Bob had a house drawn on his paper, it was his house. Bob had a garden.

 Bob had some sheep. Bob had his own world drawn for him on his paper.

 He had to water his garden ......and tend the sheep.

 Bob's wife and kids helped him. The garden grew and grew.

 Before long they could not water it enough. It shrunk up. Bob's wife made pie. They didn't have to water that plant anymore.

 Bob liked the pie. Bod did not want to tend his sheep or water his garden.

 Bob's wife and kids could not do it without Bob. Bob decided to come off his paper and draw some water on the garden so he and his family wouldn't have to water it.

 Bob was bad. The artist is supposed to draw , not Bob! Bob's garden was flooded!

 Bob could not erase crayon, so they had to eat the sheep because the garden seemed destroyed.  After they had eaten both sheep, Bob came off the paper again and drew some greenery in the flooded garden.

 It seemed like a fix but it wasn't. All the water became green. Bob and his family turned green when they drank the water.

 The only not- green water came from his daughter Bab's tears. Bob had destroyed his world.

 The artist was sad. Bob cried out, " Help us!"

 The artist did not erase crayon. The artist did not have white- out.

 The artist was angry!  "Why did you destroy the world I made for you!," He yelled.

 Bob was bad. " Because I felt like it, Duh.", said Bob.

 The artist had enough. He picked up Bob's paper and took it away.....Away to the next room where the wood stove was.

 The artist opened the door and threw in the paper. Thus was the end of Bob's world. Let this be a lesson to you....Take care of what you have and don't play God.
The End of Bob.
( told you it was intense!)

Reading My Christmas Capote Book

 Today at i.v. I sat there trying to read my Christmas Capote book, it was a gift from a good friend last year....... I have read it probably at least 50 times.

I read it so many times because my friend was on a trip and it made me feel closer to her,
it went with me to doctors appointments and it went with me inside the hyperbaric chamber. 

the book came with an audio cd, and I would fall asleep listening to it.

So today I decided to read it again and much to my surprise......I had forgotten most of it.

Well.....that sort of bothered me.

Anyway, other than that today was mostly good.

It's rather ironic I think, that the book title is" A Christmas Memory".....and I forgot it!

But if I think about all the stuff my brain has done since I read it last I feel better.

What Has Been Going On...

 Well before I had the bad seizures I went shopping with Grandpa which was fun , but very different than years past since Katie had to work , Aaron had homework and Kelsey didn't go. 
 I did like having him to myself though!!

December 7th was Katie's birthday which was fun since she and her husband came over and had dinner with us.
Wow, this is her first year as a married woman!! 

December7th made me sad too though because Aunt Kelly's memorial service was then....It wasn't near my home..I didn't go, but I did think about her ...and cried some.

I will always think of her as Aunt Kelly even if she wasn't my aunt.

Well then I had some very bad days ( bad seizures) but I am better now and started sewing like crazy ( I had some gifts to make) , and wrote letters till I gave myself blisters....Those kind of blisters sort of feel good in a way, it means I felt like I could get my thoughts together and I could think enough to write them.

I also wrapped some gifts and put them under the tree :) 

My Mommy and I put the decorations on it this year......times are a changing.
It really wasn't so long ago that my youngest siblings would be excited about the tree.

And yesterday evening Katie and her husband, Ethan came over :)


                                  Katie's Hugs :)

                            Aunt Kelly and Mommy

Out of Sorts

I have been feeling out of sorts and have not been doing very well.

I had some bad seizures, all of them are bad but these are dreadful.

I have not wanted to write.

I will try to write more soon........

I Am Not Fearless....

 I have wanted to be fearless.........some people think I am.

My sister got me a very beautiful bracelet that says fearless on it ....I love it but when I go to i.v. I take it off.

No , I am not afraid of needles ...I am just afraid of what my friends are going to be like.

I mean, you know.... how much worse they got.

Death is not something I fear , its the way people have to live that frightens me.

So I just wanted to say .... I wish I was fearless but I am not.