I Had a Birthday....

So yeah on the 28th I had my birthday. Yup I made it another year. I am amazed because so many times I thought I would die last year and I didn't. We ended up looking at photos on our computer from just a few years ago and I feel like I truly understand what Bob Dylan meant by" I was so much older then, I'm younger than that now". I am smaller , need mere supervision and help doing stuff. In some ways though it seems like I am a old old woman. I am 23.

I Did not go to Church Today....

We have lots of snow and our driveway is over a half a mile long. I feel sort of ashamed to say quite frankly I am a bit glad. I wanted to stay home, not go to church. I LOVE church but I feel like blaaa. My Mom really does not want to risk getting stuck in the snow with me because its hard for me to get around. Thats that.

Something That is Bothering Me........

 Something that has really been bothering me is the fact that my left leg has not been working properly, starting in September. Maybe it is because I have hit my head too many times, maybe I just have too many seizures, I don't really know. I am afraid. I am afraid of what might happen next. I am unhappy I still cannot use my leg. I am supposed to get an AFO Thursday, that has taken months. Everyone thinks I am so brave but I am not nearly as brave as you think I am.
 I am really tired of taking my medicine, even though I know I must I still don't like the way it makes me feel. If I quit , like they tried in hospital, I have seizures nearly non stop and since it seemed to take the grandmals away I just cannot stop. But life goes on and I absolutely must continue on and pray that God gives me the grace to continue on and to do so without deep depths of sadness.

I like to draw. :)

Hello world, What I want to know is when you look at me with my helmet , walker or wheelchair, what are you thinking when you stare at me? If your curious I don't mind. I probably would be too!!! You can ask me questions, if they are too personal I'll let you know.

 If people staring bothers you smile away...and everything will be alright because very few people will not smile back and if they don't they are not worth worrying about, you could pray for them. Maybe they had a bad day.